vulnerability.
They say being vulnerable heals, so here's something I want to be vulnerable about... As a growing Christian, I've struggled with perfectionism. The insatiable urge to want to get everything right. And I've fallen short a couple of times. The one that almost wrecked me completely was falling into sexual immorality. Not sex, but the things around it. And you bet I felt disgusted with myself. It made me feel unqualified. Far worse, the repercussions I faced for my shortcomings weren't funny at all. I'm not going to lie, it made me doubt God's love for me for a while. And honestly, sometimes I still doubt it. I was afraid. I still am. I want to run, yet I know I need to stay. Stay in the secret place with my Father, so my soul may find rest in Him. So that's what I'm doing. I no longer want to be bound by fear. So Lord, I ask that You set me free from every guilt and fear and make me whole again.